And it's a threesome......based/inspired from a doujin that was about threesomes. XD Go figure. It's Lotor, Allura, and he who shall not be named. *stabs the dork in red.* I could see this as a cover for Wedding Blues too, and in my mind no doubt who Allura would choose. After all, she's sitting on a certain someone's lap! XD

ANd a belated Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends who celebrate it!

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I decided to approve the comment. Mainly cause I don't want him to think I get a lot of negative comments and just delete them.

And here is the email I wrote him:

Hello there;
I'm not sure what you want me to say. Valkyrie Profile happens to be near and dear to my heart, but especially for the Lezard and Lenneth angle. I have to ask you a question though, if you hate the thought of him getting her, why did you even come to my site where it's predominantly Lezard Lenneth stories?

Ah, no matter....you're not the first to get upset, although first to get upset on my site. There's a whole live journal community dedicated to LezaLenne and I never had any problems there. In fact the only place people got upset was fanfic net.

I do give you high marks in actually leaving an email to get in contact with, since the rest of the comments have all been anonymous cowards. The type to leave a flame and run away, unable to stand the thought of being talked to.

To answer your question, no I do not have anything against Lenneth. Or Valkyrie Profile. It's very much the opposite. I only write for something that really moves me, and the two fandoms I write for are Valkyrie Profile and Voltron. Both pairings just happen to be good lady bad guy combos.

Believe it or not, the rape fics do have a following. There are people out there, and we're not sick perverted freaks, who like the villain heroine combo, and like our villains to stay evil. We know they do bad things, even to the one they profess to love. Some people can't understand that, and it's fine.

I get a lot of ideas, and I can't help it if they're dark. In fact I prefer my darker writings, since the cheery happy fics I usually feel the most dissatisfied with my writing. I know I'll never be a mainstream author since I can't make myself write normal, happy stories, but that's fine with me.

Lezard Lenneth and Lotor Allura are my muses, and as long as they continue to inspire me, I'll keep writing.

There's more I could say, but I'm not real comfortable explaining myself to some random stranger. I struggle with things, and those that know me know I've struggled with the content of my stories. But as friends and readers say, it's just written fantasy and harmless.

Bye;
Michelle

Geez.....do I even approve this comment on my site? 0_o


Comment: What the heck? Half of these are rape fics. Do you have something against Lenneth or something, because this is not how to write Valkyrie Profile fanfics. Lenneth is one of the few genuinly dignified and non-sexualized video game female stars and these fics seem to be all about making her submissive, weak, controlled, and rape-able to one freak who wants nothing but to control her mistaking lust for love. I really don't want to come off as insulting, but why? I understand not all fics and clouds and rainbows and female enpowerment, but damn, Lenneth never walks away with any dignity left by the end of each fic that I've read or seen the summery of and has unspeakable things enforced on her in the most horrible ways imaginable. She's never still the strong female lead we all know and love from the games. She almost always ends up stripped of her powers, basic rights, and usually, clothes, and forced to play sex slave. Do you have something against a female lead who's well-adjusted, rational, focused, and frankly more powerful than any of the men in her life or something? I really hate to think that knocking a strong and independent woman (however fictional) is somehow a turn on, especially since you're a female author. Can you not just let Lenneth get off with some facsimile of dignity or allowed some basic rights even women in the Middle East can expect to have in just one of these fics? Sheesh. Yeah, I know my comments were strongly worded, but Valkyrie Profile is a series I feel very strongly about. I often look to this series to prove that not all video games that feature female characters objectify women. Thus I frankly feel that a whole series of fics based around knocking the series' first star down several pegs so that some sick freak can have his way of with her is not helping. If I'm misunderstanding you, please E-mail me and correct me.

It was a hard fought battle that lasted three days.....but eventually this thing beat me. I had to do the system recovery that wiped everything off my computer. *sighs* Only thing is this time I was prepared and saved a lot of stuff to cds but before that it was rough. My paint program stopped working, saying it had the spyware had infected it, and my mouse stopped working too. I had to switch mouses three times before I got the orignal mouse working by doign a system restore to 9 in the morning to fix things temporarely.

I'm so drained...I gotta redownload all my manga now.....>_<

SO yesterday I was coloring a pic, while listening to music off of you tube, and surfing one of my regular visited art sites. When...the computer suddenly gave me a blue screen I had never seen before with a bunch of writing talking about restart your comp, and what to do if this wasn't your first time seeing this screen.

So I restart the comp, only to find out I now have a virus or malware. Long story short, it messed up my comp, I managed to save to a cd my fic notes this time, and when I went to reboot the computer, as my virus protection said to do, well...it suddenly wouldn't work right at all.

What I mean is, it would get to the main screen right, the one with the icons and start button. Only..I didn't have icons or my start button. Just my lovely purple and blue mountain wall paper. T__T

I thought I would have to do another system restore and set the comp back to facotry settings. Luckily three system something or others set it back to allow me online.

But yeah...I don't know if the problem is fixed or not...>_<

With links back to the first two chapters to refresh your memories since I haven't touched this one since March. ^^;;


http://cleoius.livejournal.com/96944.html

http://cleoius.livejournal.com/99003.html

I was fine with this chapter at the start, but then....well kept running into snags once he got her in bed. It kept going wrong....or Allura would end up liking him too much which wasn't consistent with her thoughts at the start of the chapter. X_X

Still not completely happy though.....=/

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WHY!! WHy am I having so much trouble getting the right mood.....T_T This is not what I want either....*sighs*


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I'm working on a chapter......and I got over 23 kb written.....and I am suddenly doubting everything I wrote. T_T Well....I'm doubting it once Lotor and Allura started conversing. I'm worrying about consistancy too....*sighs* I might finish it and throw it up here anyway...

Edited to add the part I think I should take out and save for later. (I might just end it at he carried her to bed.)

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One of the annoymous who is kind enough to comment on my journal posted what is her first Voltron fic!!

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5505092/1/An_Arussian_Education

I think ya'll should read. I'm only about to start chapter four, but I really like what I have read so far. She weaves a very engrossing back history for Lotor! And Lotor reacting to Allura as a child is so darn cute in it's possseissive way!!

I wrote back to the girl before starting to read this story. Just a short, polite one telling her I was not comfortable with her using things from my story. I also asked her to clarify what she meant by using my descriptions....and said I'm sure she could come up with her own if she tried hard enough. ^^;;

I've been taking a break from writing, as is obvious from the lack of story updates. I've got like a hundred hours in Drgaon Quest 7, but I think I will start writing again soon. Last time I played DQ7 was back in May, and in the middle of playing I got inspired to work on fics, probably Harem Slave. We'll see what I get inspired to finish next.

I'm also cleaning up my computer since yesterday. I already deleted like 4 gigs of stuff. And more to go through! (I'm a pic saving fiend.)

And it wasn't anything that put me in a bad mood. Though I feel a little confused. Get to that in a sec. She mainly apologized and said she just got so excited she had to post the story, and to please forgive her. Then her second one, which is where I get a little confused, is asking to use some of my settings...like my descriptions for Rufus' bedroom, and Valhalla and Yggsdrasil....0_o I don't know if this means she's going to continue to try and continue the story on her own...*scracthes head.* She didn't talk about that part.

I haven't written back yet...thinking on how to say things to her. I don't want to be mean, but I most definitely do not want someone continuing the story for me.

I've been thinking about the snow trade story, and became enamored with a thought of Lotor coming back from a long conquest. I'm not sure if he'll be successful or not...it would probably involve Voltron, and Allura would be pushing him for details, anxious for any tidbit about her friends....and all he wants to do is cuddle and make out after a long seperation. XD

And she'd be a little freak, cause she could smell blood on him from those he personally killed....;-p

She finally got in contact with me. I see two pm's from the fic stealer. I've got a nervous feeling in my stomach, and am scared to look. Will it ruin my day? I don't know....but I am not prepared to read them right now.

In other news, my cell phone still won't connect to the net! T_T I called, and finalyl got a live person to talk too, and they said everything is set up for me to send pics to the web. They even had me dial a number to reset my phone, and when that didn't work, she said that their web has been down, but try again in a few hours. But it's been days. The mobile web always tells me to try again later. And when I try to send pics, it says network authentication failed. -_-

Argh....my phone....I just spent 90 minutes trying to get the cell phone working. For some reason I couldn't add money to the phone. And then I find out my number is gone, it's no longer active or cancelled. I tried a million numbers, could not get hold of a real live person to talk to.

Finally I "tricked" the phone, by calling the activation number and it gave me a new phone number. Which then allowed me to add my $15 off the prepaid card I bought today. \o/

Only...for some reason the network is down, so I can't send pics or else I would have pics of my cats and my dolls up already. *face palm.*

Whatever, I'm going back to Dragon Quest 7.

Just got back from the vets. The kittens got their latest shots. Platina didn't have ear mites, but she does have an ear infection which explains the gunk in her ears. So I got medicine for her to put in the ears. And they gave me deworming medication to give them another does of in 10 days. (They got a dose at the vets along with their distemper shots.)

Platina also has a heart murmur but the doctor said it's nothing to worry about yet. She may grow out of it even. Maxie was very adventerous even in the vet'soffice, jumping from counter to counter and onto the floor. Wanted to chase after the vet and assitants. Wouldn't hold still for the doc to examine her. XD But she managed somehow....;-p

It didn't cost as much as I fear for two patients. Even with the extra medicine, it only kept out to $174.20. Still a lot, but I thought it would be closer to 300!

 

And I've been wanting to update my site for the last few days, but the damn dashboard for the wordpress site isn't loading up completely...>_<

So I did trash those last few sentences, to save them for a later chapter where they need to have that convo. I'm back on track, but it's slow going. Every sentence is a small chore to get out...choosing carefully what they say, trying to get them to where I need them to be....

I spent all my free time reareading the first ten chapters of Divine Misunderstandings so I could write 11 today.

*whines* I got Lotor and Allura talking, and I know Lotor has had a little too much to drink, but suddenly he;'s out of my control, telling her things that it's too early to be saying. I'm trying to get them on track...and debating if I should trash the last few sentences of their conversation to get them to what I originally intended.....0_o

I also realized that because of something that will happen soon (in like...maybe three chapters?) I will probably have to do some Merla POV chapters too. Let's just say Lotor and Alura will be in the same spot, and it won't offer much of an outside view for other stuff taking place if I don't write one from Merla (or Alfor for that matter) view....

My Lezard and Lenneth dolls arrived!! EEEEEEE! And they are awesome, especially Lezard. I am amazed at how they got all that detail on his blue coat with the gold trimming. They even gave his little side sheater with the dagger in it. How cool is that! And Lenneth is fashinablly sheek in her town dress. I must get her armor next.

I haven't taken them out of the box yet. Lezard's looking a little squished in his side of the box. It's a pink ox, with double holders, one side for each one. Lezard and Lenneth are a match set! XD

As soon as I get money on the cell phone. I will take pictures of them. I have to get her armor made next!! I love my dolls!!

I just uploaded chapter 111 to the fanfic net site. And I sit there and glance over the words....and it's the garden scene, when everything still seemed so hopeful...and I think to myself, I could indeed rewrite the ending...if I trashed the end of 115 and took it in a different direction.

I guess I sit here and think of the poor fanfic netters who have no idea in a few chapters the rug will get pulled out beneath them. I will put a warning on 114....but...I guess I still get scared over what the reaction will be to the true ending...

So maybe I should think about doing an alternate branch after all...I just don't know...-_-

In other news, I hurt myself....okay, I wanted to lock the kittens out of the room so I could sleep, since the two maniacs like to fly around the room like wild women whenever I lay down. Only I didn't lock them out when I should have, cause Maxie jumped on the bed, all purring and licking me. And even Platina settled down and I had both of them sleeping with me.

That lasted about an hour before they went nuts. They wake me up, I'm scrambling in the dark, snag one. Put my hand on this short bookcase (Only three shelves, goes about waist high on me.) and my hand goes THROUGH the damn book case top. The wood broke, and something I dunno if it was wood or metal, scracthed open my arm...it was bad, it bled.

I had a doctor's appointment this morning for 9:15. I figured the doc could look at it....and well nope. Cause I get there, and they can't find me in the computer. So I went to the doctor's for nothing, no appointment,  she's overbooked for the day so can't squeeze me in even though I have an appointment card with this date on it. >_<

Whatever I am through with this doctor. I was just using her until the new doctor I will see in November, will start taking new patients. *sighs*

I was scared to look at the new review for Dark Drabble. Nichole left me a nice one about how she likes it cause it makes people squirm....and now Seducing Reason left a nice one too!


Story: Dark Drabble Series
Chapter: 11. Chapter 11

From: Seducing Reason ( http://www.fanfiction.net/u/450559/ )
Reply URL: http://login.fanfiction.net/secure/review_pm.php?reviewid=92732883
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I love a crazy Lezard. And I'm curious to know how his inner beast will react
to Lenneth trying to escape. I love your stories. You ought to change the
title, I suppose, because it's not really a drabble anymore. Hee.

Do you suppose this being that he is was born this way, or that he was made
through abuse? It begs the question, I think.

Drew- the word you are looking for is decency.

Some of us don't read fan fiction to get off. Sometimes, just sometimes, rape
isn't even about sex. It's about power, dysfunction, a clear insight into the
more twisted of human minds. When people write about rape, it very rarely is
about being "hot".

I like this story because it's about being cornered with no options. The type
of stress that would put on both victim and captor is hard to write about, and
this story is a good tool for learning harsh lessons for characters. You are
seeing a hard subject from two different angles, and eventually, you'll see a
decisive conclusion where Lenneth will face her demons, or be devoured by
them. Perhaps the same for Lezard.

THAT is the appeal.
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